God, I need a life.
I've read this book like a thousand times. It's called Still Waters by Jennifer Lauck. Good book to read when life kicks you in the butt. Makes me realize that my life may suck at times, but there is someone out there that has it much worse. And so I read.
And then I realized, that these two little paragraphs, no more than half a page together, completely sumed up my love life at this point.
In the book, Luke is the kid that everyone likes, popular, and nobody can say no to him. He's the kid that you love so so so much, and then when it's all said and done, you still can't let him go. Even if you broke it off in the first place. Then comes the kid Randy. So quiet, a klutz, and yet so sweet and innocent and great to talk to. Knows your problems and helps you deal with them.
I had a Luke, and now I'm with a Randy. Hypothetically speaking, of course. Let me put down exactly what I'm going through, 'cause I think I'm right back at this spot in my life:
"I got lost with Luke. With Randy, I know exactly where I am. I wonder if I'll ever get Luke out of my system or worse, if I made a terrible mistake. I wonder if I was in love with him but didn't know it or didn't know how to feel it. I think that's the truth, I probably made a terrible mistake and I will never find another person in the world who will make me feel the way Luke made me feel."
--Still Waters by Jennifer Lauck
pg.164-165
My love life is so messed up.
