Serious Crap On My Mind.

I've been thinking a lot lately. About lots of things. I've had so much on my mind since A Closer Walk (amazing youth retreat). We talked about a lot of things. God, relationships, sex...a lot of serious stuff. And it won't seem to leave me alone.

I believe in God completely. So, no problem there.

Relationships:
I love having a boyfriend and everything, but sometimes it gets to be just too much to handle. They complain, they're asses. So why do we love them? XD the guy I'm with now is amazing. And even though he can be uber emotional and an ass occasionally, but he's uber sweet and he's doing everything he can to change for me. And I love that(: But when does the ass-iness get to be too much? Sometimes I just can't handle it. I hang up on him on occasion >< Augh. Boys.

Sex:
My personal opinion: No sex 'til marriage. I was raised like that, I follow the Bible, and I think it's the right thing to do. I want to find a guy that I really love, and a rock on my finger will prove that(: But it's so hard to believe that everyone's having sex. What happened to the days when guys had cooties? Sometimes I think about things like this and it's just like 'Crap we're growing up.' I don't really see a problem with sex before marriage with others, IF a couple has been together for a while, a LONG while, and they're devoted to one another. But if it's been like, a month. Then I don't really approve, no matter what the circumstances are. STDs and teen pregnancy are crazy problems, and I don't want people I really care for becoming like that. That would crush me.
Also, I don't really want influence like that on my life. I wanna try and live a good Christian life and surround myself with other Christians. I know that sounds horrible and way mean but goodness...I don't wanna be there when there's all the drama and then crap and hurt feelings and omg. I don't think I'd be able to handle it...

Well, leave comments. Tell me your opinions. No madness please?

Like The Nerd I Am...

...I sat here for almost two hours reading a really fantabulous book. Really, beautiful day and right in the middle of summer break, and I'm inside reading. Mom told me they were going to see Ice Age 3. Nope, I wanted to sit and read.

God, I need a life.

I've read this book like a thousand times. It's called Still Waters by Jennifer Lauck. Good book to read when life kicks you in the butt. Makes me realize that my life may suck at times, but there is someone out there that has it much worse. And so I read.

And then I realized, that these two little paragraphs, no more than half a page together, completely sumed up my love life at this point.

In the book, Luke is the kid that everyone likes, popular, and nobody can say no to him. He's the kid that you love so so so much, and then when it's all said and done, you still can't let him go. Even if you broke it off in the first place. Then comes the kid Randy. So quiet, a klutz, and yet so sweet and innocent and great to talk to. Knows your problems and helps you deal with them.

I had a Luke, and now I'm with a Randy. Hypothetically speaking, of course. Let me put down exactly what I'm going through, 'cause I think I'm right back at this spot in my life:

"I got lost with Luke. With Randy, I know exactly where I am. I wonder if I'll ever get Luke out of my system or worse, if I made a terrible mistake. I wonder if I was in love with him but didn't know it or didn't know how to feel it. I think that's the truth, I probably made a terrible mistake and I will never find another person in the world who will make me feel the way Luke made me feel."

--Still Waters by Jennifer Lauck

pg.164-165

My love life is so messed up.

Lauren made a bloggy :3

So, I pretty much need to vent.

This kid has been flirting with me NONSTOP and it's really effing annoying. He knows darn well that I'm taken. So I can't understand why this kid still tries. And he knows I don't like him like that. Heck, I don't know if I like him as a friend. But honest to goodness it just gets so annoying. I try and tell him 'Hey, stop the flirting, you aren't getting anywhere.'

HE DOESN'T GIVE UP.

Ever have a guy like this? Yeah, you know my pain. You know.

Speak of the devil, he texted me.

Lord, will this EVER STOP?!

Please,take pity on my poor soul.

PS: Yes, I do thoroughly enjoy a rainbow :)